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Blogpost added Dec 15, 2008, read 216 times
That's about how I feel, like something dead revived. I won't bore you with details, but 2008 has been a long rough year for me. I have come to discover that many things that used to annoy me are now counted as less than nothing when held up and measured against the real world. You see things very different after you spend any amount of time staring at your pulse on a heart monitor wondering if these will be your last moments on Earth. All the crap sort of peels away and you see what really matters. I finally realised that the Internet is the paramount venue for drama creation and propagation and that there is no way to fight it without being dragged on to the stage as a principal player. Something I candidly never wanted and am more than a little disgusted I didn't realise it until far too late. So I have started listening to my cat. She gives great advice, as cats often do. She sees the world in a very clear and concise way, it's all about her, which is only right, since she is the centre of the universe as far as she knows. Maybe I will make more things for The Sims 2, maybe I won't. But for the first time in many years I finally remember why I did all this in the first place. I did it to have fun. That's what I aim to do with the time I have: Have fun. Something I haven't been able to do for longer than I care to remember. So consider me retired from the thespian craft; my interests lie elsewhere, as they always did. Drama, like worry, benefits no one, achieves nothing, and is a paramount waste of everyone's time.
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On Dec 18, 2008 Cyclonesue wrote:
I think I want to hug your cat! :-)
It seems like a very long time ago when I first made things 'for fun'. Buildings, mainly. Maxis unwittingly gave us these incredible architect's tools and made everything possible. Reading your blog made me realise just how long ago that was, and perhaps that is why I've not wanted to create anything for a very long time now. I too walked off the stage some months back and dropped Sims completely. TSR have been brilliant about that. Like you, maybe I will or maybe I won't find my way back, but if I do, it has to be for the fun I used to have.
So thank you for making me think. I hope dearly that you recover; you've been gone so long. It was wonderful to hear from you at last, and your blog has helped me work things through in my mind too. Take good care of yourself and live freely - drama-free.
On Dec 19, 2008 francien wrote:
I'm sorry to read this all, but I understand, sometimes whe are going through some things wich makes us think what is the sense of all you did like many others, everything ocmes on a time whe seems to need it. I have had it four years ago, almost dead been in hospital for 7 weeks and fired myself otherwise I had to go way longer..all the crap dramatic and so on is not worth to think about not speaking to argue over it, some people love to have the drama etc, I don't I like peace for myself and the ones surrounded me they are worth of it. No fighting its useless, it start over again after your back so think you are the one who wins imo..
You said that you started with creating for the fun, I think that is the most important thing you must have in everything, when the fun is gone it became work and people seems to want more and more not knowing how much energy and time you have putting in each thing you did/do..that is also the way it is.
I wish you lots of fun, humor and a smile it will come back for sure even
On Dec 19, 2008 francien wrote:
Ah my last words are cut off!! I wish you all the best and thank you for your incredible creations the past..take care and think on yourself!
On Dec 21, 2008 Wolfsim68 wrote:
I know where you are coming from, after losing my husband to cancer this year. I find it difficult to spend time in the forums & I find that I only build when I just can't get an idea out of my head. It's made the creating fun for me again. So take your time & I hope this time of reflection will inspire you to greater heights - no matter what you choose to do. Love & Hugs
Shaz
On Dec 25, 2008 MsBarrows wrote:
Well said! I hope you do rediscover the fun of making things and sharing them; if nothing else so I can plague you for a bookshelf to match your wonderful police office set. *Grins evilly*
Seriously though, enjoy yourself, doing whatever it is that you most enjoy doing. If that turns out to be other interests, then so be it. Health, both physical and mental, is far more important then us having more pixels for a game. And drama is only fun on stage!
On Dec 28, 2008 mightyfaithgirl wrote:
take care of yourself.. you come first! I am new to creating and re-colouring and so right now it is fresh and exciting and hard as hell sometimes!May 2009 be a year of God's blessings for you my friend!
On Dec 28, 2008 dynasty93 wrote:
Glad to see you updating! Sorry to hear things have been so rough for you!!! Your health comes first, and I hope you feel better soon! Give your cat a hug from me, ok? Take good care of yourself!!!!
On Dec 29, 2008 slkouga85 wrote:
Please take care of yourself Yakov. I love you as much as any anon. person in cyber-land could. I wish only the best for you and you very wise cat! I'll miss you but I want you take yourself to yourself if needs be. Here's to a better New Year!
On Jan 5, 2009 sharonkull wrote:
God Bless you and keep you in good health and good humor.
The cat has the right idea.
Be well.
~Sharon
On Feb 5, 2009 padre wrote:
we all love you no matter what! I miss you, but i am content knowing you're doing what makes you happy. hope all is well in your world. yours eternal. p