Oh my sweet baby Jesus.

Oh Dank. 

I just went through my old blogs.. I never used to type like that, did I? Oh god. I was such a loser. I mean Jesus, no wonder people hated me. Well you know, they still hate me, but I've stopped caring. My compassion for others feelings has completely gone after my emotions were toyed about with by an asshole. 

Anywho, I started writing my own REAL blogs, on a Blog site. (http://regrets-and-olddebts.blogspot.com/). There is currently, 2 posts on there, but that's only because my last blog got me in a hell of a lot of trouble with friends, a little bitchyness on it shall we say, however, she asked for it. Because NO-ONE treats me like shite and gets away with it. and Yes, I apologized, and No I will never speak to that hypocritical whore ever again. 

So, my life is no longer 'good.'  But in all honesty, I'm a very blunt and self obsessed person really, but I think I have good reason to care more about myself than others, because i've been shot down more times than I can count. So I have to keep my guard up before I let people into my life.

But HEY! I totaly see life in a new perspective, I know not to trust people because they only let me down, I know not to try to make people like me, because that never seems to work, So I guess, I am my only company, Because no-one knows me, better than I do. 

Yeah sure, I have like no friends left because people are beginning to see the real depressing, self obsessed, heartless, controlling me, but I'd rather be hated for something I am than be loved for something im not. 

And on that note, I bid you adue, as I am off to play on the sims, the only place in the world where my life is a fantasy that only sweet dreamers, can dream.