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A few lonely nights later I stood outside my house and walked down to the beach. I stood there gazing out to sea and the pier. I just started crying. Had I been used? I really cared about him. My first love...and after finally being close to him he decides to ignore me day after day, night after night. Each night I would go and stand looking out to the sea. I don't know why...but I found it calming and it helped me. I would sometimes go in the early hours of the morning and read a book or do a painting. Anything to take my mind off him. One night I started feeling rather ill. I tried to sleep as best as I could. After a while I just couldn't lay down at all. I felt like I was going to be sick. I ran to the loo. I started happening in the mornings too and that's when it hit me....could I be pregnant?
I had always dreamed of being a mum...but to someone who didn't even want to see me or speak to me again? My head was in a spin.

I did a test. Positive.
I tried desperately to call him. I sent him a message.
Please see me...I have news.

Before I knew it he was at my door. I raged at him.
I couldn't help myself. I completely flipped.
Why hadn't he been answering his phone? Why did he just leave me after he stayed the night? Why hadn't he been online so I could speak to him?
I started to cry.

He apologised and hugged me.
I smiled for a moment. But then he said he had news for me too.
What is it? I wish I had never asked...

He said calmly....I'm married.
My heart sank.
I told him I was expecting his baby.

I just stood there in shock.
We looked at each other and cried. A moment on madness hit me...
I begged him to leave his wife for me!
I don't know what made me say it...I kind of blurted it like I was thinking aloud.
We just stared at each other in complete silence.
After about 2 minutes that seemed like 2 hours...he did an awkward smile and said things hadn't been working out with her for a while and maybe he should leave her and start a life with me.

My jaw hit the floor.
I asked him if he was serious and he smiled and said yes. He held my hand and told me he loved me. I believed him. I was going to have a family...a proper family of my own. Going to work and announcing I was pregnant was amazing.
Everyone tried to feel my tummy for a bump!
I was so happy. I was still annoyed with Gus for ignoring me and lying that he was single all that time...but...at least he chose me.

I'd love a baby girl but I'll be happy with whatever I have as long as he or she is healthy. I was determined to be a good mum. Better than my mum ever was. At least I would care for my child. My mum hated me. Said I was a waste of space, a mistake, worthless. How could she have been so cruel? I would never let that happen to my baby. I started reading pregnancy books and found out as much as possible to help me start my life as a mother. I called Gus now and then but he always said he was too busy to talk right now and said he would call me back...it was rare he did.

I asked if he had mentioned me to his wife...and he said he was working out a way to tell her. I didn't want to pressure him in case he changed his mind. So I waited patiently and just focused on my growing bump. Walking home from work loads of people used to smile at me and come over and tell me congratulations and start speaking to me. I loved the attention...and I loved the attention my bump was getting. I just wish Gus gave me the same attention. Everyday I tried ringing him. When he did pick up the phone he could never seem to speak to me...Unless he was at work. Weeks had past and he used to go mad if I brought up his wife. Same excuse every time...I don't know how to tell her.

He told me things with her was awful and he didn't love her and wanted me. So why was it so hard to leave her? I just didn't understand. I started feeling low again. Seems like my dream of being a happy family was slipping away from me. I started heading back down to the beach on a night. Thinking about life. My poor baby...I don't want him or her to have that unloved feeling like I did. Gus needs to get his priorities straight. He's going to be a dad. He needs to pull his act together and be there for us. I needed to confront him.

Alaysiah Roze - Chapter 3

Jun 24, 2010 by dizzydiana
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    6 Comment(s) posted so far

    On Jun 25, 2010 nataliestonard wrote:

    Great part. How horrid is Gus and i cannot wait for her to meet her unborn child \:\) I also love her name. Well done 4/5 from me. (p.s id give it a 5 if the chapter was a little longer \:\) )

    On Jun 25, 2010 Illandrya wrote:

    I think Alaysiah would be better off forgetting about Gus and concentrating on herself and her baby - she will be better off because he seems to still be lying to her. Great chapter, I can't wait to find out what happens if/when she confronts Gus.

    On Jun 25, 2010 fredbrenny wrote:

    I met Gus in real life.... Just forget him! Men like him will never learn and never grow up! Alaysiah should do as Ilandrya said. Focus on herself and her baby and forget about that poor excuse of a man Gus! Great story! 5.0!

    On Jun 25, 2010 dizzydiana wrote:

    thank you everyone! \:D

    On Jun 26, 2010 Mangio wrote:

    how could Gus do that? Alaysiah should keep herself healthy and not get fed over about the guy...\:wub\: cant wait for more

    On Jun 26, 2010 martoele wrote:

    I never trusting this Gus. He's disGUSting! \:mad\:

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