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“Don’t turn the lights on just yet dear.” The voice said. I took a gulp, sheer terror began to wash over me from head to toe, I could feel it force its way through my body, flowing fiercely through my veins, my heart began to race, my limbs began to shake, I couldn’t move to turn the light on even if I wanted to at this point.
“Don’t be scared, I will not hurt you, I am just here to talk with you, I don’t have much time dear.” The voice said trying to assure me. I was not assured, I was scared. But I mustered up the courage to finally flick the light on.
I turned the light on slowly, my fingers still shaking and my heart still racing. When I turned around, I nearly fainted. I clenched my hand to my heart as it began to beat faster, I tried to scream but I was so terrified I couldn’t make a sound. After my eyes adjusted I came to one conclusion, I have lost my mind.
“I am completely off my rocker, its official.” I said to myself as I threw my hands in the air. “This can’t be happening, there’s, no such thing as…ghosts.” I said again to myself. I closed my eyes tight.
I slowly opened both eyes just enough to focus on what was in front of me, still blurry from closing my eyes so tightly, she was still there. I closed them again.
“No you are not going crazy, while you may not believe in ghosts, there are such things as spirits, because Dani, dear I am a spirit and yes I am really here. Please don’t be frightened, and let me talk I don’t have much time.” The voice said again. I felt a strange sensation on my arm and suddenly my body emptied of fear and I was calm and relaxed. I opened my eyes.
She stood there, in front of me with a warm smile on her face. I studied her momentarily. Could this really be my mother’s spirit? Am I dreaming? I don’t remember lying down after coming inside. I was extremely confused. Though I wanted to be scared, it’s like she impaired me from feeling so. I turned back to her as she stood there with a concerned look on her face. “Daniella, please listen to me, I’m not suppose to interfere with your life directly, but as your mother I couldn’t allow you to continue on like this, I am begging you to re-evaluate your situation, I have watched you for the last year, and while I am proud of you coming into your own without me, if you continue on ‘certain’ paths, the outcome will only be bad. I cannot tell you directly what it is I am referring to, but you’re a smart girl you will figure it out.” She said to me calmly.
I looked at her still in disbelief.
“Is it really you mom?” I asked again.
“Yes, Dani, it is me. I don’t have much longer, but please think about what you’re doing before you do it or don’t, please don’t go through life with blind eyes, listen to your heart, it knows what is best for you, your mind will rationalize later.” She said to me.
“Mom, I have missed you so much…” I started to say to her but I noticed she started to disappear.
“It is time for me to go Dani, I love you, and please remember I am not really gone, just look inside yourself, and there I will always be.” She said to me as she grabbed my hand.
“Mom, MOM!! Please don’t go, MOM!!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs. But before I knew it she was gone. I suddenly didn’t feel so good. And everything went black again. I sprung out of a slumber that I hadn’t really remembered taking, to the noise of the TV, which I also didn’t remember having on. Au Revoir Mon Amour was on again.I was also trying to reason with myself that what I had experienced tonight was completely a dream. It had to be, there was no other logical or sane explination. Suddenly my ears began to ring, as the movie went to a commercial break, I began to get up to turn the TV off, the button must have been broken because it wouldn’t turn off. So I channel surfed and ended up on the shopping network, they really know how to suck you in as soon as I had it on the channel I could hear the lady.
“You, yes you on the couch there, remember if you really love something, listen to your heart, it knows what is best for you, your mind will rationalize later.” I was suddenly over come with an odd sensation of déjŕ vu. The TV began to flick through the channels and landed on Au Revoir Mon Amour again. I suddenly began to feel extremely uneasy and when I couldn’t shut the TV off again, I jumped up and unplugged it.
I sat in the dark for a few moments calming myself down. I just couldn’t shake this strange feeling I had. Then I thought about the movie, along with the events of the evening and the words that were festering in my head, spinning circles around my brain, echoing in my ears.
“Listen to your heart, it knows what is best for you, your mind will rationalize later.” I just couldn’t wrap my head around it.
Then I began to think about Ari, and our evening together watching the movie, my vision then fast forwarded to when he left and what he had whispered in my ear.
“Au Revoir Mon Amour”
The same title as the movie, yet I still didn’t know what it meant. I knew that Au Revoir meant good bye, the other words I did not know so I sauntered over to the bookshelf to find my English-French dictionary to look it up.
I wrote down the first word.
Then I skimmed through the dictionary and wrote the other words as I found them.
I stared at the paper for a while. And then I gasped. Ari said, “Goodbye, my love.” It took me a moment but I pulled myself together, somewhat anyway, and grabbed my keys and flew out the door as I trampled down the stairs I blurted out to myself “I love you too Ari, please, please, please, pleeeeeease don’t let it be too late.”
I figured if I hurry I can make it to the airport in time to stop Ari from getting on that plane or at least tell him how I feel. I wasn’t sure how to go about it but I knew I couldn’t let him get away.
Dawn had already broken and people were beginning to come into the streets, I really had to hurry if I would make it on time. I ran down the road as fast as I could when I literally bumped into Rene.
“My how the tables have turned, nice of you to bump into me for a change, mademoiselle.” Rene said.
“Not now Rene, I’m in a hurry, sorry for bumping into you.” I said to him as I continued to run. I could hear him yelling for me in the distance. I didn’t acknowledge it. I just kept running.
I got to the airport and I remembered seeing the terminal number on his ticket and ran straight to it, I searched around until I found the service desk.
“Excuse me ma’am can you tell me if flight 456 has left for the states yet?” I asked the lady.
“The plane is getting ready to take off as we speak, I’m sorry miss it’s too late to board.” She replied.
“You have to stop that plane! I need to get on it or get someone off it.” I exclaimed.
“I’m going to have to ask you to please remain calm and wait for the next flight.” She said calmly.
“I can’t wait!” I said as I tried to make it through the door to the boarding hall.
A scruffy looking security man then came up to me and was not as nice as the service lady.
“Ma’am you were told to stay calm and wait for the next flight, if you continue to be disruptive I will not hesitate to take you into custody.” He said to me in a stern tone.
“Sir, you don’t understand I have to get on that plane!!” I said to him as I tried to force my way through the door. I was completely hysterical now. I couldn’t let Ari go, not without a fight. I ran out onto the tarmac, the scruffy officer right behind me , I was too late the plane was just taking off, I stood there flailing my arms, not that it would make a difference but at that point it didn’t matter. I was quickly detained and taken to a small rundown holding center. It dark, damp and reeked of mold. I was completely appalled, but for what it’s worth I did it trying to get to Ari.
“Can I get my phone call please.” I asked the officer.
“You can get your call after the chief of police arrives.” He snarled at me.
“You may be looking at a little time here after the stunt you pulled, so by all means make yourself at home.” He added.
I just snickered at him and sobbed quietly in my chair.
I sat there and watched the officer enjoying his leisurely time on the computer, while I sat in this rotting cell. And the worst part was that I didn’t even get to Ari. I don’t even know who I can call to get me out of here; I don’t have any close friends in France.
I began to cringe at the thought of Rene being my only hope out of here. I’d rather rot in here until I am released then ever ask him for help.
After the scruffy officer played around on the computer for what seemed like hours, he got a phone call. I sure wish I could get mine without having to wait, this place was awful, I didn’t even want to really touch anything, fearing I might come down with some horrible illness. He then came over to me.
“I’m sorry Miss Lansing it will be a little while, the chief of police’s hand are tied at the moment and I have got to go help him, enjoy the peace and quiet.” He said to me rudely.
I must have nodded off because I was awoken to a loud voice and the sound of a slamming cell. I tried to see what was going on but was too late. I could hear the officer talking.
“Never thought I would ever see you in here kid, such a shame. You can have your phone call now if you would like” he said to the person in the cell next to me.
I began to grow even more perturbed. I have been in here for god knows how long, and this kid next to me gets thrown in the cell and his phone call already.
The officer excused himself for duty and I stood there, alone staring through the cell. All I wanted to do was cry. But I couldn’t not with another person in here. I didn’t want to show any weakness. Then I heard them speak.
“I need to cash in a favor, I’m in the slammer.” The man said. I gasped I couldn’t believe it.
“Ari?” I said.
“I figured it was you.” He replied.
“What on earth are you doing in here?” I asked
“I would ask you the same thing but when I got back to the airport I heard the whole story.” He replied.
“Back? Why did you leave, you missed your flight.” I asked
“I went to look for you, when I didn’t find you at your apartment I thought I had time to make it back to catch my plane, then everyone was talking about some big scene, I asked some questions and well since they don’t allow visitors in detainment I had to find a way to get in.” he said as he laughed.
“Why would you do such a silly thing? Couldn’t you have just bailed me out?” I asked.
“I would but I don’t have anything they had already put my luggage on and I couldn’t get it off.” He explained.
“I see.” I said. “So now what?” I added.
“We wait.” He said.
“So what on earth were you doing causing such a scene anyway?” he asked me. “I was hoping to make it on time to catch you because I wanted to talk to you. And when I didn’t, I guess I got a little out of control.” I replied.
“What did you want to talk to me about.” He asked.
“I don’t think now is the time nor place for that.” I replied.
“Now is as good of a time as any, we aren’t getting out of here for at least a few hours.” He said to me disappointingly.
“We? You mean you, I haven’t even gotten my phone call yet, and I have no one to call.” I said to him.
“Don’t worry it’s taken care of, it will just be a while.” He reassured me.
“So now again what was it that you wanted to talk to me about?” he asked again.
“Well…I don’t really know where to start, I don’t…I just don’t want to…sound foolish, I guess.” I said to him.
“We are talking to each other through walls of a jail cell; I think we have long passed foolish.” He said with a chuckle. I joined in with the chuckle.
“Touché.” I replied.
“So now that we have that all sorted out, what was so important that you had to bum rush the air strip to talk to me about?” he asked for a third time.
“Well after I ran after you to give you your ticket, I went back home and long story short, something clicked inside of me, and I had to stop you from getting on the plane.” I said as my words crackled.
“Mmmhmm.” He said
“I don’t really know how to say it, so I’m just going to say it, Ari, I’m...”
Just as I was about to pour out my feelings to Ari, some blonde bombshell walks into the jail, covered head to toe in paint, and yet she still had this strikingly amazing beauty, I was jealous.
“Brianna!” I heard Ari exclaim.
“Thanks so much, I owe you.” He said to her. She laughed.
“You don’t owe me, you’re cashing in a favor.” She said sweetly.
“Well I will owe you one; I need you to bail out Dani too.” He said to her.
“No problem Ari, it’s the least I can do.” She said. “I’ll leave the check with the officer, I need to get back to work, can you manage a way back to town?” she asked him.
“Not a problem, thanks again.” He said to her. She walked out and shortly the officer came back in and released us. Ari agreed to meet up at my apartment for dinner after we both had a chance to change.
As we enjoyed our post prison meal together, I could feel Ari’s eyes on me. I pretended not to notice as I was figuring out what and how to say what I wanted to without fumbling on my words. For once in my life I wanted to get something right, and this was the time I needed to do it more than ever.
I looked up a few times at him pretending my mouth was too full to talk. He always had a very similar look on his face, one of intrigue and caring, amusement and interest.
Those looks always made me wonder, what exactly was going on in that pretty little head of his.
“Well I was thinking maybe we can get away from being enclosed in door after our stint in the slammer, there’s a great little camp ground on the outskirts of Paris, I would like it if you joined me.” He said to me.
“Camping! I haven’t been camping in years! I should probably change into something more fitting for camping though.” I replied. I was excited.
I helped Ari set up his tent then lit a fire.
“I need to run down to the general store, I don’t have a tent.” I said to Ari.
“No need, you can share mine if that’s ok with you, there’s plenty of room, I don’t like the thought of you wandering into town this late at night alone, and I don’t want to leave you here alone either.” He replied.
“I guess that will be ok, next time I’ll be more prepared I guess.” I tried to say nonchalantly. But inside I was as giddy as a school girl with a crush on the cute boy in the senior class.
We sat at the fire pit roasting some late night snacks. The time spent was quiet, but not awkward, I think we were both trying to stay quiet in hopes that the other one was ready to talk.
The warm evening air quickly began to turn chilly and breezy, we stood up to warm ourselves by the fire.
Ari positioned himself closely to me as we hovered over the warm crackling fire.
“So Ari, why did you leave the airport in the first place?” I asked him casually, trying to
get out of having to say what I needed to; I was still going over things in my head.
“Well if you must know, I was coming back to find you, because there was something I forgot to tell you.” He replied.
“Oh really, and what might that be?” I asked nervously.
“That might be something you would know had you answered my question, as to why you were looking for me.” He replied.
After we warmed up we sat down to poke the fire to keep it from going out. I figured now was as good of a time as any to just say how I was feeling, what’s the worst that could happen anyway? Worst case scenario, Ari rejects me, but somehow I just don’t see that happening. I truly believe that he feels the same as I do, or at least pretty close to it. “Ari…” I began to speak, then suddenly forgot my next line, and before I could talk myself into chickening out I decided to just wing it, if I stumbled on my words, so what? At least it will give Ari a laugh, that’s one thing I always did love about us, no matter what I always made him laugh.
“Listen I am going to just tell you everything, even the parts that may seem a little crazy, so please just listen because if I stop talking, I’m afraid I might never say what I want to.” I said to him.
“I’m all ears.” He replied with a warm smile.
“So after I ran and brought you your ticket, I went back home. I walked into my apartment and it was completely dark, before I could switch on the lights I heard a voice, that told me not to be scared, but of course, I’m in a dark room, and I hear a voice , naturally I was petrified. When I finally could move to flick on the light, and I know this will sound weird, I saw my mother’s spirit. She visited me to well do what mothers do best, give advice, though I’m pretty sure most of them don’t do it from the grave.” I said to him pausing to take a breath.
He sat there listening intently, with a truly intriguing look on his face, so I continued on.
“She just told me to think about what paths I was choosing in life, and to steer away from a certain path, because the outcome would only be bad for me, and that I need to stop going through life with blind eyes, you know the typical mother advice. But one thing she said really stuck in my head very clearly. ‘listen to your heart, it knows what is best for you, your mind will rationalize later.’ Then well she was gone. And the last thing I remembered was waking up on the couch and the movie we watched earlier was on, then all these weird things started happening. So I shut the TV off and sat in the dark, until you came to mind, and what you whispered into my ear before leaving.” I said, again pausing to take a breath and preparing myself for the next thing that was going to come spouting out of my mouth without thinking about how to say it.
His eyes were now locked even deeper into mine. I took a deep breath and continued on.
“So now I need to do either one of two things, get checked into the nearest funny farm, or I need to seriously thank my mother for opening my eyes, because she made me realize something I knew all along but was too afraid to admit to you. Ari, I am completely, irrefutably, head over heels…” I stopped myself as my heart began to race;it began to beat so fast I couldn’t get the words out if I had wanted to at that point.
“It’s ok Dani, it’s just the two of us here, well the two of us and Mother Nature, and crickets and other critters, and I’m sure they won’t tell a soul.” He said with a sly smile on his face.
“But if you don’t want to say anything, of course you don’t have to either. Just want you to know have nothing to fear, you can tell me anything.” He added reassuringly.
I swallowed hard, and I think most of it was stubbornness, and maybe a little bit of pride.
“I was going to say that I am completely, irrefutably, head over heels in love with you Ari, I have been for a while, and I could only hope that you feel they same way ,even if just a slightly, it just seemed like every time I tried to tell you…”
I was suddenly cut off by the softest yet most passionate lips I had ever felt come into contact with mine. Apparently he wasn’t going to let me finish, and at this point the rest really didn’t matter, everything and anything he could have said, would not have been as good as what his lips were saying to mine. He had scooped me into his arms so gently yet tightly, pulling me close to him, and pressing his lips to mine.
This was definitely how I would picture my first kiss, the butterflies were fluttering hard in my stomach, my knees were week, and I caught my foot slowly popping outward, it was just like the kisses you see in the movies, never thought that kind of thing could really ever happen in real life. And that’s exactly what it was, it was our first real kiss, who says you can’t have do over’s anyway? He paused briefly taking his lips away from mine; they began to tremble as if they were going into withdrawal. He looked into my eyes, a gaze that was so deep and loving and warm, I had instantly forgotten just how cold it had become outside, because inside, I was melting. He quickly scooped me up into his arms and walked me into the tent. He layed me down gently on the sleeping bag and placed the covers over me before climbing inside of them next to me. He place one arm around me and gently kissed my cheek.
“Bonne nuit mon amour.” He whispered into my ear.
“Bonne nuit mon amour.” I said back to him.
Pieces of Me: Chapter 11
Sep 18, 2010 by Nygirl08
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