first part of my story
my story starts here.
I am Anna. I am 21 and I have a beautiful little daughter Deserae.
A few months after she was born strange things began to happen to her. She would bruise so easily, if she was laying in her crib and she knocked her arm or foot on the side of the crib the next day a big violent bruise would show up. I took her to the doctor and they referred her to a specialist who confirmed she had leukaemia and had a little survival rate.
Every since that day I have been up at the hospital with her since she needs 24 hour medical care.
She is a little joy to have, even the hospital staff love her. She is such a happy child it makes me sad to think of her fate. When I look into her eyes I get a feeling she knows she is not well it’s the look she gives me like she is telling me not to worry but I cannot stop worrying she is my little angel.
She started to get tired so I put her in her crib when the consultant asked to speak with me.
I gave her a kiss on the forehead and she wrapped her tiny fingers around my face. Her little eyes looked up at me all bright and blue in a way that she telling me don’t worry.
I walked into the consultants room. He had medical books against his wall. I looked at him there and then I knew it was bad news.
“Deserea’s condition is getting worse. In order to cause you daughter less pain we need to do a bone marrow translate and we have found a candidate that would be willing to do this.”
I looked at him in disbelief. I thought she was getting better. Tears started to fill up in my eyes
“I thought she was getting better.” I spoke holding back my tears made my sentence come out in a high pitch.
He gave me a sympathetic look. I went back into Desi’s room and all I wanted to do was hold her in my arms. I felt that my heart had broken into tiny pieces and bit by bit was being taken away feeling me empty. I had not felt this hurt before not even when me and Desi’s dad broke up.
Desi was awake and sitting in her crib waiting for me. I picked her up in my arms and held her tight. I started into rock her and she giggled making me smile. that’s when the nurse came in it was time for her medication.
She took her over to the changing table and laid her down. I felt the room by this time I could not see my little baby cry I know this is a bad thing to do as a mother but I knew I would feel guilty if I stayed in there she would look at me with teary eyes that scream out mummy help me.
The only way the nurses could get Desi to take her medication was through an injection. I could hear her cry all the way down the corridor.
I could not take the pain anymore I sat in the waiting room and broke down to cry. Onlookers gave me a comforting smile but it did not make me feeling any better. I saw the door where Desi was open and out came the nurse she was still screaming. The nurse walked up to me and told me I could see Desi but I was not allowed to hold her as she was still in discomfort from the medication. As the nurse finished speaking I got out of my chair and rushed into her room.
I saw my little Desi in her crib screaming with all her might. I rushed over to her crib and gently stroked her face. She calmed down after a while and fell to sleep. The medication she was on made her more sleepy than ever. I just watched her sleeping for a while. Since Desi was a permanent patent I was giving a room to stay. So I decided to head off telling the nurse to come and get me if she gets upset.
End of part one
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7 Comment(s) posted so far
On Oct 10, 2009 martoele wrote:
O, poor little girl and poor mother.
Let's see of somebody would like to be a donor... 
: Good job... 
On Oct 10, 2009 Mangio wrote:
such a brave poor little girl. hope she'll survive.
great start
On Oct 10, 2009 Golden97 wrote:
Aww that was really sad!
I hope she survives it!! 
On Oct 10, 2009 spitzmagic wrote:
Good chapter. Heart breaking...looking forward to the next chapter..
On Oct 16, 2009 xOxJESSICAxOx wrote:
awwwwww thats so sad! I hope she gets better
On Oct 18, 2009 melaniecox wrote:
A really sad story, but heart felt.
On Oct 31, 2009 Neko Sims wrote:
How depressing!
I almost cried!
Deserae, god bless you <3