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part 2
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Days past and the hospital was getting everything ready for Desi’s opp. I had also noticed her hair was getting thinner the nurse told me it was because of the medication as now she was on a higher dose.
I sat Desi’s down and began to teach her to speak. Since she was two and didn’t know how to speak I thought it was time for her to learn.
It was the day of the opp and Desi’s hair had all fallen out and she looked more beautiful than ever. It was early in the morning and Desi had not eaten for over 24 hours and nor did I but for different reasons she could not eat because of her opp I didn’t eat because I was so nervous if I ate I would have probably thrown up.
I watched for a while through the glass door. I saw her on the table looking so peace full. My heart was in my mouth the whole time. All I wanted to do was to run in there and hold my little angels hand to give me peace of mind more than her.
I stood in the hallway and started to cry. The memory of when I told Desi’s dad she had leukaemia. We had broke up when I was 6 month pregnant he had met someone and decided he loved her more than me. I didn’t mind I thought my baby is more important to me than him. When I told Desi’s dad he told me that he didn’t want anything to do with it. That hurt more than anything he didn’t even turn up to see her. The hospital staff are more her family than him.
It was getting late and still there was no news about Desi . I sat in the waiting room chair just staring at the door waiting for someone to come out. I could here all sorts of noises from the rooms as I zoned out the noises became louder. I was deep in my zone listing to the hospital noises I didn’t notice Mark Desi’s consultant sat next to me
“you look tired have you got any sleep.?”
“no I haven’t” I replied her told me to get some sleep. I told him to come and get me when Desi comes out.
So off I went to get some sleep I felt emotional and physically drained. I didn’t want to sleep but my body was telling me I had to
I came back all refreshed. The first person I saw was Mark. He had a smile on his face.
“Deserae has just came out and she is fine, she is in the recovery room and you can see her soon.”
A massive smile wiped across my face tears rolled down my face. I was so happy.
“I was wondering if you would like to go to dinner with me later.” mark said
I was shocked
“as in a date?” I asked
“yes, yes you can call it that”
I hadn’t been on a date since Desi’s dad. I decided to say yes it was the least I could do for him being so supportive to me and Desi.
I had spent the day with Desi she was unwell from the anesthetic so I was manly cleaning up after her. When I wasn’t cleaning up after her she was sitting on my lap and I told her stories mostly Disney stories as their the stories she could mostly understand.
After I put Desi to bed it was time for my Date. Mark took me to the hospital restaurant on the roof he knew I didn’t want to go far away from Desi.
The date was going well I told him about Desi’s dad, he was shocked to find out about him, he told me I could to better which made me smile.
After the date he took me back inside the hospital and walked me just outside Desi’s room. I thanked him for a lovely time then he grabbed my waist and pulled me close I wrapped my arms around him and he kissed me. All different emotions when running through my body his kiss felt different from the other guys I have dated. It felt more safe than dangerous.